MY younger brother DAVID  would have been 56 today.  He has been gone over 20 years now. It seems even longer to me now than that. I often wonder what he would think about things that have happened along the way. .I was living in Ca. at the time and had not been back to Michigan in 7 years. Jobs and money always got in the way of coming back to visit. Life happens you get busy and you lose track of what is important.On that April morning I heard a knock on my door, it was very early in the morning. It was my aunt..she had come to deliver the bad news, that my brother had died in a car accident. It was a shock to my soul. I had known he was kinda unhappy in his life and wanted to change things. He never had the chance to do that. The next day I was in Michigan with the help of some relatives, I managed to catch a plane home. The whole thing was a blur to me. I remember seeing my aunt and uncle talking about something that was in the morning paper that day. It was a normal day for them but not for me. Simple things like packing a bag and calling my boss and arranging a ride to the airport seemed like monumental tasks. Everything was moving in what seemed like slow motion. The plane ride was smooth and uneventful I hardly knew when it was time to get off. My mind raced with thoughts of the past and growing up together. It all seemed like a blur.

It was cold, colder than Ca. for sure. It was April in Michigan..that can be pretty cool to a person who the day before was in 75 degree weather.  Such a shock to my system, to be so upset and see everyone around me the same way. When life gets taken so quickly a person just does go into shock I guess. I wore a heavy coat to the cemetery. The service was packed with people from all over who knew my parents or knew my brother. It was standing room only during the service and the director told my folks he had never seen such a crowd. It was then I knew that my brother had made an impact on people of all ages. He was likeable and left quite an impression on people. I was so sad that I had to catch up on his life like this..why had it taken me so long to get to know him better? He didn’t like to talk on the phone much and so we never chatted about this or that . I remembered the last time I saw him in the airport in Detroit when I had come home for a visit the last time. I had the most awful feeling when I left that day inside me. Something I could not put into words or feelings. I cried on the plane going home, something I had never done before in my life after visiting home. I wonder now if I really deep down knew I would never see him again. I have had some ” vibes”  in my life, but none like I had that day.

                                                                                                              David  at 7 years old

I learned though my brother’s passing, that I  should really keep my family and friends as close as I can. I always try to do that matter how busy I get or what else is going on. I think I have become a better person for that knowledge.

I therefore pass that on to anyone reading this..Time is SHORT…live it to the fullest that you can..and keep your heart and mind open to every experience that you can hold on to. Keep your loved ones close as you can and never take anything or anyone for granted.







I was a caregiver for the elderly on and off for over 30 years.I am now retired and enjoying a new life. I love blogging and have kept a personal journal for 40 years. I enjoy the freedom of being creative and interacting with the millions of other bloggers in the world.I love learning the new things that the computer world has to offer. I have made friends that will last a lifetime blogging, something I never ever thought would happen. I hope you enjoy my blog,and will continue to visit me in the future.

4 responses »

  1. Yeah, we have strange feelings sometimes. I had a friend once, who said goodbye to me on the doorstep, and I knew I wouldn’t see him again. Not the same way as your brother, but I knew our friendship was over. Sometimes those vibes are real, sadly.

  2. I know how you feel Sis, since I lost my oldest brother two years ago come this July 26th. And it is strange when we are in mournig that oters are, of course, acting and feeling normally; talking about every day things while our hearts are broken. But, we do that too and it’s all unthinking and just living life.


  3. Carol, so sorry to read this story about your brother. Very Sad, but for the past 20yrs, he is in heaven with no more worries, pain, and enjoying himself and most likely, looking down on you as brothers do for there sisters most of the time, but a lot of sisters never believe this, but they do. He is no longer shy either, and someday when it becomes your turn, he will meet you with open arms!

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